About 6 months ago, my husband lost his job. The very next week, we found out we had been blessed with this little lady currently 31 weeks in the womb. We were at a loss at how to process this blessing of a child next to what seemed to be a curse. You see, this was the 4th time he lost his job and it was only 10 months after the last. How in the world are we going to provide for this baby? How are we going to keep a roof over our heads? WHY do we keep going through this?
I honestly asked God to help me see His plan and to help me trust in His faithfulness because really, I couldn't see it. I know He provides, we've seen it time and time again, yet I couldn't see how He could possibly do so this time. I remember the prayer vividly because I don't know if I've ever spoken so boldly to God before. "I know you provide, but I just don't see how this time. Please show me."
That same day I spoke to a wonderful friend and mentor. As I explained my personal battle with this war we've been fighting for 3 or so years, she simply said "God has something for you." You see, I even recognize that God is working furiously in me. He has pruned me via friendships, jobs, cities, circumstances, etc. He has pruned me dramatically. He has been chasing after my heart and soul so incredibly that I swear you can see it and witness it on a minute to minute basis. It's truly incredible, humbling and sometimes, downright scary. I am NOT the girl I was 2 years ago, definitely 3-4 years ago. I have seen God work time and time again in our family's lives, yet it's still hard to trust when the struggle is all to real.
Last week in the current bible study I'm doing, All Things New, Kelly Minter spoke of these words her dad said over her in a season of struggle, "God has something for you." It just really, truly humbled me. We may struggle; His word guarantees it. We may not see the way out; He is all seeing. We may not understand the struggle; His comfort always matches our struggle. We may not get why we hurt so very bad, BUT God loves us immeasurably more than we can even understand.
I want to pray these same words over you today. God has something for you, and it's good. So please, trust Him. Hang on to His every word. Stop looking at the world. Stop striving to be more, do more, figure it out. God has something for you. Love you!