"Letting go of every single dream
I lay each one down at Your feet..."
Lately I feel God calling me to lay down more and more of my hopes and dreams. It's not a comfortable feeling. I have big ambitions. I set mega goals and keep very high expectations of myself. However, as the days go by I still feel as far away from my dreams as I was a year ago. Then He prompts me to listen. He knows my dreams. He sees them, he really does. He knows my heart and he hears my cries. Through all of my grumbling and days of not feeling like I'm good enough or I'll never "make it", He faithfully draws me near. He wants my heart. He wants me to seek Him more than I dream of worldly things. He shows me his love and glory in the smallest moments with Calista, in the beautiful lyrics of a song, or in the quiet after bedtime. He blesses me time and time again. All I have to do is turn to him, lay it all down, and see every single blessing that I have. It's not like he's denying me my dreams... He's blessing me with His dreams for me and that's even better.
So I don't know how you are struggling, but I do know you aren't alone. You are good enough. He hears you and He is blessing you. You just have to look up and see it. It's going to be okay whether you hit your dreams or not, because God's plans are always better than ours. So seek Him, sweet friend. Hold tight to the one who loves you best.